FOR CAMILLE GRACE
With the practiced grace of a water ballet
she floated into our world
Rising to the surface like a miniature mermaid,
her roseate skin reflecting our joy.
She squalled upon her arrival, the water
rippling with delight as she navigated her way into our hearts
Tuesday, December 20, 2016
Monday, November 28, 2016
FOR ELIAN
At precisely 4:30 am
on a thick Miami morning
all masks, rifles and jagged bravado
they kicked in the door without warning
The family scattered like frightened birds
they could not believe what they saw
as they were thrown to the ground and kicked
all in the name of the law
Elian hiding in the closet
wrapped in his saviour’s arms
Poor Elian, terror in his eyes
just wants to be safe from harm
Reno’s rangers snatched the boy
in an act of retribution
because a terrorist named Castro wanted him back
to hell with the Constitution
At precisely 4:30 am
on a thick Miami morning
all masks, rifles and jagged bravado
they kicked in the door without warning
The family scattered like frightened birds
they could not believe what they saw
as they were thrown to the ground and kicked
all in the name of the law
Elian hiding in the closet
wrapped in his saviour’s arms
Poor Elian, terror in his eyes
just wants to be safe from harm
Reno’s rangers snatched the boy
in an act of retribution
because a terrorist named Castro wanted him back
to hell with the Constitution
Sunday, October 30, 2016
Saturday, October 22, 2016
Sunday, October 16, 2016
SOUTH HAVEN
Autumn
October
hunched along the eastern shore of Lake Michigan
like an abandoned child
South Haven waits for summer’s return
My wife and I
stroll the streets
now reticent and barren
like the beach itself
sulking behind the buildings
where seagulls screech their impudent calls
as they prepare their escape
from the looming
hostile Michigan winter
Along the beach
rows of gift shops
tee shirt shops
fast food cafes
sit shuttered and dark
rejects to the changing season
that leaves them barren and sequestered
like victims of a dreaded disease
The sound of our footsteps
ring past the seaside inns,
their blinds drawn against blank windows
the season’s dust settling like a plague
over unused furniture
closeted like unwanted dogs
behind locked doors
The clouds
like charcoal smudges
across a translucent canvas
wallow in their own reverie
hang
then drift eastward
over jade waters churned
by the rebuke of fall’s stiletto winds
South Haven
lives for the drone of motorboats
skiers in tow,
and the background chorus of tourists
in their flip flops and shorts,
hot hands clutching cold drinks
watching their kids scurry to the lake
like berserk lemmings
But as the inevitable cycle
plays itself out,
one last gull paces the beach
looks westward
and anticipates an arduous flight to the sun
as autumn bites
at its wings
Autumn
October
hunched along the eastern shore of Lake Michigan
like an abandoned child
South Haven waits for summer’s return
My wife and I
stroll the streets
now reticent and barren
like the beach itself
sulking behind the buildings
where seagulls screech their impudent calls
as they prepare their escape
from the looming
hostile Michigan winter
Along the beach
rows of gift shops
tee shirt shops
fast food cafes
sit shuttered and dark
rejects to the changing season
that leaves them barren and sequestered
like victims of a dreaded disease
The sound of our footsteps
ring past the seaside inns,
their blinds drawn against blank windows
the season’s dust settling like a plague
over unused furniture
closeted like unwanted dogs
behind locked doors
The clouds
like charcoal smudges
across a translucent canvas
wallow in their own reverie
hang
then drift eastward
over jade waters churned
by the rebuke of fall’s stiletto winds
South Haven
lives for the drone of motorboats
skiers in tow,
and the background chorus of tourists
in their flip flops and shorts,
hot hands clutching cold drinks
watching their kids scurry to the lake
like berserk lemmings
But as the inevitable cycle
plays itself out,
one last gull paces the beach
looks westward
and anticipates an arduous flight to the sun
as autumn bites
at its wings
Tuesday, October 4, 2016
DESCENDING ON A SNOWFLAKE
You must have descended on a snowflake
From somewhere beyond the highest peak
where angels (if they existed) would twirl
like ballerinas on point, encased in raindrops
You must have descended on a snowflake
wrapped in sunlight
surfing on a rainbow
coming to rest in my heart
You must have descended on a snowflake
From somewhere beyond the highest peak
where angels (if they existed) would twirl
like ballerinas on point, encased in raindrops
You must have descended on a snowflake
wrapped in sunlight
surfing on a rainbow
coming to rest in my heart
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
I USED TO LOVE THE CITY
I used to love the city…
maybe because we both hummed
with kinetic vitality, youth/madness
twenty-four hour nonstop mania
An incessant surge of faces,
a blizzard of life simultaneously
blinding and buffeting, avalanches of noise
pulverizing the streets spread out
like entrails, leading everywhere
and nowhere in particular, yet they’d
take you there anyway through asphalt
curtains of hip-hop, reggae,
muscle coiling metal, ending where
Johnny Walker Red blues fizzes from
south side clubs and melds with
prickly country licks that don’t end
till the sun rises as hazily as a
homeless druggie’s cataract eyes
Sunrises erupting from the belly of
Lake Michigan, reflected in the glass
of the skyscrapers that sprout like
concrete weeds across the manipulated prairie
where the Midwest pioneer spirit
sweats and freezes in its perennial fatwa
against nature, giving no ground, grinding with
a force beyond its own power
Now I avoid the city…
with an older man’s defensive cynicism.
Where I once heard a jambalaya of music
turbocharging the heartland, I now hear
the riffs and rants of the inner city
buckling the listener with obscenity-fueled
doggerel that attacks like terrorists,
corrupts like acid, degrades like gang rape
To cruise the streets now is to feel
as vulnerable as exposed organs, to lock
on the eyes of a populace that devours
its young for a divine high, vacant faces
barricaded in classrooms, while outside
the doors, sirens announce more blood
flowing through the sewers
My city is like a spoiled cake
hidden by a sweet florid frosting
and those City Hall bakers tell you
to hold your nose and take a slice, swallow
hard and ignore the indigestion
I observe from the safety of the borderlands
a city awash in the contradiction of growing
emptier as it grows fuller. Sometimes I think
I can still hear the chatter of traffic juking
like a pinball around its towering totems;
sometimes I hear voices in the farm fields
luring me away from the concrete dominions
of my youth, to a place where
the little voices are still cherished
I used to love the city…
maybe because we both hummed
with kinetic vitality, youth/madness
twenty-four hour nonstop mania
An incessant surge of faces,
a blizzard of life simultaneously
blinding and buffeting, avalanches of noise
pulverizing the streets spread out
like entrails, leading everywhere
and nowhere in particular, yet they’d
take you there anyway through asphalt
curtains of hip-hop, reggae,
muscle coiling metal, ending where
Johnny Walker Red blues fizzes from
south side clubs and melds with
prickly country licks that don’t end
till the sun rises as hazily as a
homeless druggie’s cataract eyes
Sunrises erupting from the belly of
Lake Michigan, reflected in the glass
of the skyscrapers that sprout like
concrete weeds across the manipulated prairie
where the Midwest pioneer spirit
sweats and freezes in its perennial fatwa
against nature, giving no ground, grinding with
a force beyond its own power
Now I avoid the city…
with an older man’s defensive cynicism.
Where I once heard a jambalaya of music
turbocharging the heartland, I now hear
the riffs and rants of the inner city
buckling the listener with obscenity-fueled
doggerel that attacks like terrorists,
corrupts like acid, degrades like gang rape
To cruise the streets now is to feel
as vulnerable as exposed organs, to lock
on the eyes of a populace that devours
its young for a divine high, vacant faces
barricaded in classrooms, while outside
the doors, sirens announce more blood
flowing through the sewers
My city is like a spoiled cake
hidden by a sweet florid frosting
and those City Hall bakers tell you
to hold your nose and take a slice, swallow
hard and ignore the indigestion
I observe from the safety of the borderlands
a city awash in the contradiction of growing
emptier as it grows fuller. Sometimes I think
I can still hear the chatter of traffic juking
like a pinball around its towering totems;
sometimes I hear voices in the farm fields
luring me away from the concrete dominions
of my youth, to a place where
the little voices are still cherished
Sunday, September 11, 2016
THE TWIN DESTROYERS
Evil arrived sheathed in a metallic skin,
a winged hypodermic needle
injecting terror and death
into the American psyche.
The twin towers pointed skyward,
a monument to free minds
and unfettered intellect,
where dreams and reality meld and mutate.
Mohammed’s tribes sprang from their caves
like rabid bats, fueled by random emotions,
blinded by a thousand years of darkness,
hating what they do not understand.
Where the Towers challenged the heavens,
the tribes wallowed in the muck of superstition,
force their only path,
myths their only blessed verities.
Evil hates the achievers,
for the world of evil is constructed
on pain and suffering,
where mindless sacrifice is the highest value.
The best defense is to keep erecting these towers
to heights these tribes cannot scale,
and let the tortured alloys of our hearts
provide the impenetrable materials.
What intellect builds,
tribalism seeks to demolish,
so be wary of the twin destroyers of humanity:
Faith and force
Evil arrived sheathed in a metallic skin,
a winged hypodermic needle
injecting terror and death
into the American psyche.
The twin towers pointed skyward,
a monument to free minds
and unfettered intellect,
where dreams and reality meld and mutate.
Mohammed’s tribes sprang from their caves
like rabid bats, fueled by random emotions,
blinded by a thousand years of darkness,
hating what they do not understand.
Where the Towers challenged the heavens,
the tribes wallowed in the muck of superstition,
force their only path,
myths their only blessed verities.
Evil hates the achievers,
for the world of evil is constructed
on pain and suffering,
where mindless sacrifice is the highest value.
The best defense is to keep erecting these towers
to heights these tribes cannot scale,
and let the tortured alloys of our hearts
provide the impenetrable materials.
What intellect builds,
tribalism seeks to demolish,
so be wary of the twin destroyers of humanity:
Faith and force
Saturday, September 3, 2016
MISSHAPEN IDENTITY
Someone else is living my life…
someone taller, leaner, someone
who is dating angelic film actresses
that hang on his piston-like arms.
He’s living in my houses, too,
in South Beach and Malibu,
and throwing celebrity-laden parties
till the sun gropes its way overhead,
which is when he drives off in
my silver Mercedes SL500
to linger over a lazy breakfast
before jetting off to Cannes
to soak up the sun like a
sleek salamander asleep on the beach.
Which gives rise to the question:
Whose life am I living?
Someone else is living my life…
someone taller, leaner, someone
who is dating angelic film actresses
that hang on his piston-like arms.
He’s living in my houses, too,
in South Beach and Malibu,
and throwing celebrity-laden parties
till the sun gropes its way overhead,
which is when he drives off in
my silver Mercedes SL500
to linger over a lazy breakfast
before jetting off to Cannes
to soak up the sun like a
sleek salamander asleep on the beach.
Which gives rise to the question:
Whose life am I living?
Saturday, August 27, 2016
FOR CRAIG
My son reclines on the sofa
eyes closed
arms crossed on his chest
his face pale and unlined
like the infant brought home
in a woolen bundle twenty years earlier
Only the shadowy stubble
outlining his lips and chin
provide a clue to his age
Only the wiggle of his toes
inside dingy white socks
hint at whatever dream
cartwheels past his slumbering mind
He is every bit the man now
yet forever locked in his father’s recollection
as a rambling two year old permanently frozen
by a parent’s paralytic hold
on yesterday’s powdered innocence
My son reclines on the sofa
eyes closed
arms crossed on his chest
his face pale and unlined
like the infant brought home
in a woolen bundle twenty years earlier
Only the shadowy stubble
outlining his lips and chin
provide a clue to his age
Only the wiggle of his toes
inside dingy white socks
hint at whatever dream
cartwheels past his slumbering mind
He is every bit the man now
yet forever locked in his father’s recollection
as a rambling two year old permanently frozen
by a parent’s paralytic hold
on yesterday’s powdered innocence
Monday, August 22, 2016
OPEN WINDOWS
We make love in the darkened bedroom
as the sound of a faraway train whistle
leaks through the open window,
a random chord from a broken night
that seeps into our lives
like a scream inside a cave
Screeching tires from teenage rust heap cars
and the distant rumble of trucks
hum like a low, incessant soundtrack
wherever there is an open window and a quest for sleep
and the wind paints portraits
of the city’s heavy breathing
We make love in the darkened bedroom
as the sound of a faraway train whistle
leaks through the open window,
a random chord from a broken night
that seeps into our lives
like a scream inside a cave
Screeching tires from teenage rust heap cars
and the distant rumble of trucks
hum like a low, incessant soundtrack
wherever there is an open window and a quest for sleep
and the wind paints portraits
of the city’s heavy breathing
Thursday, August 18, 2016
BUZZKILL
BUZZKILL
She says she believes
Asks if I do
I am unsure how to respond
Grope the words like they were overripe fruit
Finally, after scouring the depth of her eyes
I say: I believe in life. The here and now
Anything else is a fairytail
Her eyes reflect aversion
That is a non-answer, she says
It is the only answer, I say
Like a delirious chipmunk, she chatters away
about the soul, oneness with the cosmos,
the universal energy, our individual auras
and the spirituality of the afterlife
I listen impassively, finish my drink
and wonder what it was about her
I found so sexy an hour ago
She says she believes
Asks if I do
I am unsure how to respond
Grope the words like they were overripe fruit
Finally, after scouring the depth of her eyes
I say: I believe in life. The here and now
Anything else is a fairytail
Her eyes reflect aversion
That is a non-answer, she says
It is the only answer, I say
Like a delirious chipmunk, she chatters away
about the soul, oneness with the cosmos,
the universal energy, our individual auras
and the spirituality of the afterlife
I listen impassively, finish my drink
and wonder what it was about her
I found so sexy an hour ago
Saturday, August 13, 2016
NORTH PIER (92)
A mid-August Chicago night
as sultry
as a hot shower
in a sealed tomb
A reggae band
rocks North Pier
with loping rhythms
and a Rasta spirit
against a backdrop
of skyscrapers
their lighted windows
sparkling like joyful eyes
alive with summer’s rapture
jutting architectural angles
looking more like
an impressionistic movie set
than real life
Each moment thoroughly
unabashedly
percolating with human current
surging through the city
on an inky sharp evening
as downtown wears
its shroud of buildings
with the audacity
to challenge the energy
down to its moorings
On the pier
conventioneers shuffle lazily
tourists dawdle with goofy smiles
city dwellers dash and dodge
eat and drink their fill
of this lakefront cornucopia
Everyone is
an integral part of the synthesis
of music
lake breezes
fast food fragrances
and the manic energy of a city
bubbling
in its own dynamic juices
North Pier
an old broad brick structure
once a tireless warehouse
now retired
yet never so alive
as it plays
with the children of the night
while reggae music festoons
down the Chicago River
in celebration
of a precious
summer night
Wednesday, July 27, 2016
STRING QUARTET NO. 4
I sit on my patio
listening to Beethoven’s String Quartet No. 4 in C minor
as the sun melds into the ionosphere,
dusk brushing the treetops
Unseen starlings chirp in counterpoint
to the morose movements,
violins evocatively weeping and celebrating
the composer’s vision
Lightning bugs spark in lockstep to the meter,
their jittery flight outlined in the gasping light.
Crickets, hunkered down in the shrubbery like insurgents,
provide the choral flourish that encapsulates
the flawless collaboration between Beethoven
and mid-summer dusk
I sit on my patio
listening to Beethoven’s String Quartet No. 4 in C minor
as the sun melds into the ionosphere,
dusk brushing the treetops
Unseen starlings chirp in counterpoint
to the morose movements,
violins evocatively weeping and celebrating
the composer’s vision
Lightning bugs spark in lockstep to the meter,
their jittery flight outlined in the gasping light.
Crickets, hunkered down in the shrubbery like insurgents,
provide the choral flourish that encapsulates
the flawless collaboration between Beethoven
and mid-summer dusk
Wednesday, July 20, 2016
MAGICICCADA
They are a tidal wave of life
washing over farmland and forest
yard and prairie
stirring from their seventeen year senescence
to emerge en masse like a
marauding army of winged warriors
eyeballs like ruby ball bearing
wings as slight as Kleenex
their mating call a staggering ninety decibel screech
like a million transmissions grinding
in unison solely
to attract a mate
I cannot blame them
for I, too, would howl at ninety decibels
if I had to wait seventeen years between mating periods
They are a tidal wave of life
washing over farmland and forest
yard and prairie
stirring from their seventeen year senescence
to emerge en masse like a
marauding army of winged warriors
eyeballs like ruby ball bearing
wings as slight as Kleenex
their mating call a staggering ninety decibel screech
like a million transmissions grinding
in unison solely
to attract a mate
I cannot blame them
for I, too, would howl at ninety decibels
if I had to wait seventeen years between mating periods
Thursday, July 14, 2016
TRAVELING LIGHT
I wish we could spend
all our days together on the road
While I drive
you would talk to me as America flashes by
As we tunnel
past the predawn dew you would fall asleep
and I would adjust your blanket
to keep away the snap of the morning chill
There will be corridors of silence
where I will catch the sound of your breathing
And when we nestle
like spring sparrows in the verdant arms of the Smokies
or flit over Florida sands
like children in the throes of natural harmony
or hang glide in the clouds
that crown the Rockies like a triumphant wreath
I will reach out and touch your hand
as you gaze out the window
at the fixed path of highway
as secure and preordained as our travels together
I wish we could spend
all our days together on the road
While I drive
you would talk to me as America flashes by
As we tunnel
past the predawn dew you would fall asleep
and I would adjust your blanket
to keep away the snap of the morning chill
There will be corridors of silence
where I will catch the sound of your breathing
And when we nestle
like spring sparrows in the verdant arms of the Smokies
or flit over Florida sands
like children in the throes of natural harmony
or hang glide in the clouds
that crown the Rockies like a triumphant wreath
I will reach out and touch your hand
as you gaze out the window
at the fixed path of highway
as secure and preordained as our travels together
Sunday, July 10, 2016
ONE JULY EVENING
Evening was sheathed
in a collective stillness
neither twig nor limb,
flower or bush
so much as fluttered or swayed.
It was as if nature held its breath.
The scent of milkweed and hostas
lingered like a lover’s perfume.
Mosquitoes twirled in the moonlight
to the locked cadence of chirping crickets.
And as the summer day
unraveled itself for slumber
its protracted sigh fell over the yard
like a gossamer blanket
under which we could wiggle our toes
and giggle till sunrise
Evening was sheathed
in a collective stillness
neither twig nor limb,
flower or bush
so much as fluttered or swayed.
It was as if nature held its breath.
The scent of milkweed and hostas
lingered like a lover’s perfume.
Mosquitoes twirled in the moonlight
to the locked cadence of chirping crickets.
And as the summer day
unraveled itself for slumber
its protracted sigh fell over the yard
like a gossamer blanket
under which we could wiggle our toes
and giggle till sunrise
Friday, July 1, 2016
July 1
It is pleasant in the shade
You sit across from me
absorbed in a novel
while I chisel away at a poem
However, I stop to watch you read,
the book laying flat on the glass table
as you lean forward, head slightly bowed
eyes fixed on the page.
Our cat, Smoky, creeps under my chair
to cheat the afternoon sun
that draws a shadow over half the yard.
Smoky stretches/yawns/brushes his head
against my leg.
Now you lean back in your chair,
oblivious to my stare,
just as I am oblivious to my poem
A restless breeze rankles the trees,
prompting impatiens to dance in the sunlight,
proving without a doubt
It is pleasant in the shade
It is pleasant in the shade
You sit across from me
absorbed in a novel
while I chisel away at a poem
However, I stop to watch you read,
the book laying flat on the glass table
as you lean forward, head slightly bowed
eyes fixed on the page.
Our cat, Smoky, creeps under my chair
to cheat the afternoon sun
that draws a shadow over half the yard.
Smoky stretches/yawns/brushes his head
against my leg.
Now you lean back in your chair,
oblivious to my stare,
just as I am oblivious to my poem
A restless breeze rankles the trees,
prompting impatiens to dance in the sunlight,
proving without a doubt
It is pleasant in the shade
Thursday, June 16, 2016
YET AGAIN
She reads to him every night,
her eyelids as gummy as bread dough,
the words trickling out like wooden soldiers,
precise, regimented,
inflection as faded as bleached wallpaper
And his eyes locked on hers’
seeing but not hearing;
or hearing but not seeing,
watching the words form on her lips
like ice crystals on glass.
His legs stir beneath the covers,
more reflexive than enthralled
She suppresses a yawn,
repetition surrendering to boredom,
the story unchanging night after night,
like the stars in the evening sky,
permanent and familiar,
yet unattainable in their scope
She bookmarks the page in the book,
knowing it matters not to him,
each page the same as the last,
the spoken words just one more exercise
of synchronicity between larynx and lips
but it matters to her,
for each passing page
is a measure of her own sanity
She reads to him every night,
her eyelids as gummy as bread dough,
the words trickling out like wooden soldiers,
precise, regimented,
inflection as faded as bleached wallpaper
And his eyes locked on hers’
seeing but not hearing;
or hearing but not seeing,
watching the words form on her lips
like ice crystals on glass.
His legs stir beneath the covers,
more reflexive than enthralled
She suppresses a yawn,
repetition surrendering to boredom,
the story unchanging night after night,
like the stars in the evening sky,
permanent and familiar,
yet unattainable in their scope
She bookmarks the page in the book,
knowing it matters not to him,
each page the same as the last,
the spoken words just one more exercise
of synchronicity between larynx and lips
but it matters to her,
for each passing page
is a measure of her own sanity
Thursday, June 9, 2016
ESMERALDA
Esmeralda is a funny sounding name
like
the metallic groan
of faulty plumbing
or
a broken screen door
swiveling on its hinges
or
the squawk of
rain-drenched sneakers
When I was a child of
five or so,
with ringlets of honey-toned hair
swiveling past my ears
there was a neighbor on our block
who, whenever he would see me,
would call out in that derisive sing-song
peculiar to all bullies
Hey, Esmeralda!
Hi, Esmeralda!
And I at age five or so
wanted to shrivel away
in my own skin
and throw up from my first
bilious taste of humiliation
And thanks to the thoughtlessly cruel
taunting by an adult,
this five year old learned
how to crawl inward for protection,
and how to distrust the human gaze,
and how to view oneself
as an oddity
He’s probably dead after all these years,
but in those odd moments
that hang like distended organs,
I can hear his voice
as wickedly sharp as a scythe
slicing my ego with the thrust
of every syllable
calling out:
Hey, Esmeralda!
My question has always been:
Why Esmeralda?
Why not Bob or Jane?
Mary or Charlie?
I guess he chose it
for only one reason:
Esmeralda is a funny sounding name
Esmeralda is a funny sounding name
like
the metallic groan
of faulty plumbing
or
a broken screen door
swiveling on its hinges
or
the squawk of
rain-drenched sneakers
When I was a child of
five or so,
with ringlets of honey-toned hair
swiveling past my ears
there was a neighbor on our block
who, whenever he would see me,
would call out in that derisive sing-song
peculiar to all bullies
Hey, Esmeralda!
Hi, Esmeralda!
And I at age five or so
wanted to shrivel away
in my own skin
and throw up from my first
bilious taste of humiliation
And thanks to the thoughtlessly cruel
taunting by an adult,
this five year old learned
how to crawl inward for protection,
and how to distrust the human gaze,
and how to view oneself
as an oddity
He’s probably dead after all these years,
but in those odd moments
that hang like distended organs,
I can hear his voice
as wickedly sharp as a scythe
slicing my ego with the thrust
of every syllable
calling out:
Hey, Esmeralda!
My question has always been:
Why Esmeralda?
Why not Bob or Jane?
Mary or Charlie?
I guess he chose it
for only one reason:
Esmeralda is a funny sounding name
Wednesday, June 1, 2016
SILENT BALLET
We are like a silent ballet,
predetermined movement without cadence,
cues missed, leaps untimed,
unbalanced spins, misstep
followed by misstep, and yet
we push our way through the choreography,
our bodies telling the story
the music refuses to play,
our ears incapable of hearing,
nonetheless: we defy gravity
with every leap, a tribute
to our synchronicity with silence
We are like a silent ballet,
predetermined movement without cadence,
cues missed, leaps untimed,
unbalanced spins, misstep
followed by misstep, and yet
we push our way through the choreography,
our bodies telling the story
the music refuses to play,
our ears incapable of hearing,
nonetheless: we defy gravity
with every leap, a tribute
to our synchronicity with silence
Wednesday, May 25, 2016
GOING BACK
It stands its ground
like a disheveled drifter
wallowing in hard times,
its best years reduced
to a fading memory vanishing
like dew under a July sun
This is the house of my childhood,
the repository of happier times,
careless and carefree,
imprinted on my brain
like a recurring DVD
Over half a century ago
is when I spent my final night there,
a kid of twelve, uprooted
like an impudent dandelion,
only to be transplanted across the city
to our new home
Like an old man,
this house has shrunk with age,
a sliver of the stature imprinted
on a child’s memory. It looks
weary now, the siding faded and peeling,
shingles missing, front steps
rotting and buckled as if from fatigue
The lawn that I scampered across
is overrun with crabgrass and bare patches,
symptoms of neglect,
like the house behind it
I lack the courage to knock on the door
and request from the current owners
a tour of the interior, for fear
of what I might find. I risk my
recollection being repudiated
like a drugged hallucination,
a young boy’s idealized memories
mocked and trampled and as parched
as the front lawn
I close my eyes, turn my back, preferring
to hold on to my sixty year old vision,
freshly painted and lushly landscaped,
infused with laughter and the scent
of Christmas trees and birthday candles,
because if I step inside, what other
memories of my youth will I find
tattered and soiled,
neglected and false?
It stands its ground
like a disheveled drifter
wallowing in hard times,
its best years reduced
to a fading memory vanishing
like dew under a July sun
This is the house of my childhood,
the repository of happier times,
careless and carefree,
imprinted on my brain
like a recurring DVD
Over half a century ago
is when I spent my final night there,
a kid of twelve, uprooted
like an impudent dandelion,
only to be transplanted across the city
to our new home
Like an old man,
this house has shrunk with age,
a sliver of the stature imprinted
on a child’s memory. It looks
weary now, the siding faded and peeling,
shingles missing, front steps
rotting and buckled as if from fatigue
The lawn that I scampered across
is overrun with crabgrass and bare patches,
symptoms of neglect,
like the house behind it
I lack the courage to knock on the door
and request from the current owners
a tour of the interior, for fear
of what I might find. I risk my
recollection being repudiated
like a drugged hallucination,
a young boy’s idealized memories
mocked and trampled and as parched
as the front lawn
I close my eyes, turn my back, preferring
to hold on to my sixty year old vision,
freshly painted and lushly landscaped,
infused with laughter and the scent
of Christmas trees and birthday candles,
because if I step inside, what other
memories of my youth will I find
tattered and soiled,
neglected and false?
Saturday, May 7, 2016
CRYSTAL FALLS
Morning mist over the lake
the frosty breath of the northwoods
rolling like a sigh over the water
chilled and quiescent, eagles overhead
gliding in curlique patterns
over the treetops, the birches
as tall and trim as totems, their ashen trunks
staunchly defying Canadian winds.
Only the drone of motorboats
squander the stillness, fishermen,
poles in hand, heave lines into the snapping air,
eyes fixed on the water, their minds
clear as the sky, wait patiently for the kiss
of northern pike upon their lures.
To the west, faintly, like a
growling stomach, storm clouds
gather and groan, delineating one more chapter
in the saga of Crystal Falls.
Morning mist over the lake
the frosty breath of the northwoods
rolling like a sigh over the water
chilled and quiescent, eagles overhead
gliding in curlique patterns
over the treetops, the birches
as tall and trim as totems, their ashen trunks
staunchly defying Canadian winds.
Only the drone of motorboats
squander the stillness, fishermen,
poles in hand, heave lines into the snapping air,
eyes fixed on the water, their minds
clear as the sky, wait patiently for the kiss
of northern pike upon their lures.
To the west, faintly, like a
growling stomach, storm clouds
gather and groan, delineating one more chapter
in the saga of Crystal Falls.
Sunday, May 1, 2016
STEEL MAN
He was a man of steel
my father
Thirty-nine years pouched in the searing belly
of the thirty-six inch plate mill
an acrid finger poking from the shore of Lake Michigan
in an act of brazen defiance
For four decades he endured
the blistering breath of white hot ingots
as they slithered through the mill
performing their reptilian undulations
of semi-liquid menace
with temperatures so intense
it felt like your skin was charring
and your bones were melting like so much wax
Every day his lungs filled with iron ore dust
as dense as the canopy of fog
hanging over the predawn lake
and every week a different shift
scrambled his circadian rhythms
until night and day lost their identities
causing my brother and I to live in dread
of waking him in the middle of the afternoon
when the unforgiving night shift
cheated him of valued rest
For thirty years he carried a scar
on his right leg, a permanent memento
he often joked about as if it were a mere insect bite
before admitting to my brother and I
right after his retirement that an errant crane
had nearly cost him a limb
Now the mill is cold and deserted
an oxidized corpse on the bank of Lake Michigan
and as if their fates were forever bound and dissoluble
they have both succumbed to nature’s forces
the cold, unflinching mill
and that indefatigable man of steel
my father
He was a man of steel
my father
Thirty-nine years pouched in the searing belly
of the thirty-six inch plate mill
an acrid finger poking from the shore of Lake Michigan
in an act of brazen defiance
For four decades he endured
the blistering breath of white hot ingots
as they slithered through the mill
performing their reptilian undulations
of semi-liquid menace
with temperatures so intense
it felt like your skin was charring
and your bones were melting like so much wax
Every day his lungs filled with iron ore dust
as dense as the canopy of fog
hanging over the predawn lake
and every week a different shift
scrambled his circadian rhythms
until night and day lost their identities
causing my brother and I to live in dread
of waking him in the middle of the afternoon
when the unforgiving night shift
cheated him of valued rest
For thirty years he carried a scar
on his right leg, a permanent memento
he often joked about as if it were a mere insect bite
before admitting to my brother and I
right after his retirement that an errant crane
had nearly cost him a limb
Now the mill is cold and deserted
an oxidized corpse on the bank of Lake Michigan
and as if their fates were forever bound and dissoluble
they have both succumbed to nature’s forces
the cold, unflinching mill
and that indefatigable man of steel
my father
Saturday, April 30, 2016
Thursday, April 28, 2016
Sunday, April 24, 2016
SPRING TEASE
March can be such a tease…
If it were a woman
her aqueous tongue would be
flitting along my neck like an ant
tracking a trail of sugar,
while her hand slithered
toward my male vulnerability
And when I would attempt to reciprocate,
she would curl just out of reach,
disinterested in the very emotions
she stirred in the recesses of my gut.
April, on the other hand--
ah…April,
Now there is a month that will go
all the way.
March can be such a tease…
If it were a woman
her aqueous tongue would be
flitting along my neck like an ant
tracking a trail of sugar,
while her hand slithered
toward my male vulnerability
And when I would attempt to reciprocate,
she would curl just out of reach,
disinterested in the very emotions
she stirred in the recesses of my gut.
April, on the other hand--
ah…April,
Now there is a month that will go
all the way.
Wednesday, April 6, 2016
BULLSHIT & DREAMS
There is a fine filament
between bullshit and dreams
that separates triumph from despair,
reality from fable
For what is bullshit
but dreams led astray,
deluded by fraudulent aspirations,
corrupted by fallacious reasoning
Dreams symbolize the purest of hopes
as yet unstained by the virus
of bullshit that mocks and erodes
and revels in failure
Bullshit is too often
the temptress that lures the innocent
into unsavory scenarios gilded
with grandiose promises of glory and riches
So we must, like adroit tightrope walkers,
negotiate that microscopic filament,
for history is replete with forlorn tales
of those who lost their balance
between
bullshit and dreams
There is a fine filament
between bullshit and dreams
that separates triumph from despair,
reality from fable
For what is bullshit
but dreams led astray,
deluded by fraudulent aspirations,
corrupted by fallacious reasoning
Dreams symbolize the purest of hopes
as yet unstained by the virus
of bullshit that mocks and erodes
and revels in failure
Bullshit is too often
the temptress that lures the innocent
into unsavory scenarios gilded
with grandiose promises of glory and riches
So we must, like adroit tightrope walkers,
negotiate that microscopic filament,
for history is replete with forlorn tales
of those who lost their balance
between
bullshit and dreams
Thursday, March 31, 2016
FACE ACROSS THE WAY
She sat at a nearby table
directly in my line of vision,
and as I glanced up
from my black hazelnut decaf
I caught sight of her exotic looks:
cheekbones imperiously prominent,
eyes the shape of almonds,
dark as ebony shards,
wide and curious,
sleek hair boyishly cropped and lightly waved,
black as licorice,
skin unlined and imbued
with the hue of caramel
She seemed an amalgam of flavors:
African-American melded with Caucasian
with a tincture of Hispanic,
the riddle made more curious
by her white male companion
upon whose words she appeared to dawdle
Furtively, I would peek over my friend’s shoulder
to admire the beauty at the other table,
wrapped in a beige sweater,
its V-neckline pointing to her erotic crevice,
which I imagined to be warm and inviting
and crying for exploration
My friend spoke and I nodded perfunctorily,
more concerned with making eye contact
with the caramel face,
as if it would link us like modem to computer,
and instantaneously we could communicate
our urges and whims
beyond this gulf of tables
She smiled at her companion,
her teeth as white as priceless porcelain
and haloed by ample lips
touched lightly by a mere suggestion
of magenta lip gloss.
I wondered how they would feel
on my neck and mouth,
pliant and dangerous,
consumptive and loving,
whispering odes to our passion
For a second as fleeting as a note
in a Charlie Parker solo,
our eyes met,
and in an act of emotional cowardice
I looked away, seeking protection
in the faces of the other patrons,
preferring to think she now discovered my existence
and toyed with her own fantasies
Eventually I recouped my courage
to gaze at the tables
beyond my friend’s right shoulder,
where my nameless angel
sat preoccupied with her companion,
my face an anonymous extra
in this café scene
She sat at a nearby table
directly in my line of vision,
and as I glanced up
from my black hazelnut decaf
I caught sight of her exotic looks:
cheekbones imperiously prominent,
eyes the shape of almonds,
dark as ebony shards,
wide and curious,
sleek hair boyishly cropped and lightly waved,
black as licorice,
skin unlined and imbued
with the hue of caramel
She seemed an amalgam of flavors:
African-American melded with Caucasian
with a tincture of Hispanic,
the riddle made more curious
by her white male companion
upon whose words she appeared to dawdle
Furtively, I would peek over my friend’s shoulder
to admire the beauty at the other table,
wrapped in a beige sweater,
its V-neckline pointing to her erotic crevice,
which I imagined to be warm and inviting
and crying for exploration
My friend spoke and I nodded perfunctorily,
more concerned with making eye contact
with the caramel face,
as if it would link us like modem to computer,
and instantaneously we could communicate
our urges and whims
beyond this gulf of tables
She smiled at her companion,
her teeth as white as priceless porcelain
and haloed by ample lips
touched lightly by a mere suggestion
of magenta lip gloss.
I wondered how they would feel
on my neck and mouth,
pliant and dangerous,
consumptive and loving,
whispering odes to our passion
For a second as fleeting as a note
in a Charlie Parker solo,
our eyes met,
and in an act of emotional cowardice
I looked away, seeking protection
in the faces of the other patrons,
preferring to think she now discovered my existence
and toyed with her own fantasies
Eventually I recouped my courage
to gaze at the tables
beyond my friend’s right shoulder,
where my nameless angel
sat preoccupied with her companion,
my face an anonymous extra
in this café scene
Tuesday, March 1, 2016
ON OUR ANNIVERSARY
On our anniversary
as I watch you dress, I notice
how lightly the years have brushed your face
I look at you
and still see the piquant beauty
with the brooding eyes
You are eternally
the effervescent high school girl
all giggles and breathless kisses
stolen on star-crusted
beaches on evenings we hoped
would last forever
You turn from the mirror
to see me looking back at you;
your smile washes away five decades
and I’m eighteen again
standing on the beach, finally realizing
the evening will last forever
GOLDEN PEARLS
The years accumulate like clam shells
washed ashore upon the beige sands of a Caribbean beach
Like fanciful children, we open the first ones
with eagerness, others with trepidation, and still others
as if ensconced in a dream, moving with rote routine,
giving only vague thought to what lay inside
Yet each pearl is immersed in its own special beauty
that only we two can fully appreciate,
for we shaped each one, polished its sheen,
imbued it with a glint reflected from our eyes,
like the twinkle from a far off galactic fire
burning since the beginning of time
The years, like the pearls,
have varied in quality. Some were dull and blemished,
misshapen and undersized.
While so many others were perfectly formed,
smooth and untarnished, radiating a flawless sheen,
full and breathtaking
Yet all of them are strung together
piece by piece, until they form
an unbroken necklace, unique and permanent,
like time itself, each one a chapter in our history,
the strand binding us together
You are my golden pearl, my treasure,
the content and meaning of my life,
my purpose and motivation
And over a half century ago when the first pearl was formed
flawless and symmetrical, I knew then
I would lock each one away in the sanctuary
of my heart and soul
On our anniversary
as I watch you dress, I notice
how lightly the years have brushed your face
I look at you
and still see the piquant beauty
with the brooding eyes
You are eternally
the effervescent high school girl
all giggles and breathless kisses
stolen on star-crusted
beaches on evenings we hoped
would last forever
You turn from the mirror
to see me looking back at you;
your smile washes away five decades
and I’m eighteen again
standing on the beach, finally realizing
the evening will last forever
GOLDEN PEARLS
The years accumulate like clam shells
washed ashore upon the beige sands of a Caribbean beach
Like fanciful children, we open the first ones
with eagerness, others with trepidation, and still others
as if ensconced in a dream, moving with rote routine,
giving only vague thought to what lay inside
Yet each pearl is immersed in its own special beauty
that only we two can fully appreciate,
for we shaped each one, polished its sheen,
imbued it with a glint reflected from our eyes,
like the twinkle from a far off galactic fire
burning since the beginning of time
The years, like the pearls,
have varied in quality. Some were dull and blemished,
misshapen and undersized.
While so many others were perfectly formed,
smooth and untarnished, radiating a flawless sheen,
full and breathtaking
Yet all of them are strung together
piece by piece, until they form
an unbroken necklace, unique and permanent,
like time itself, each one a chapter in our history,
the strand binding us together
You are my golden pearl, my treasure,
the content and meaning of my life,
my purpose and motivation
And over a half century ago when the first pearl was formed
flawless and symmetrical, I knew then
I would lock each one away in the sanctuary
of my heart and soul
Wednesday, February 24, 2016
NO MORE WINTER BLUES
Why do they call it
“Winter Blues?”
From my window I see no blue
The sky is the sullen gray
of decrepit drywall
The lawn wears the brown cast
of oxidized flesh
Trees, their limbs twisted and exposed,
look like emaciated monsters,
their hides blackened and scarred
From this moment forward
let the season be called
“Winter pale”
For like an embalmed corpse
its color has been drained
and it awaits burial
###
BELOW THE LINE
I wish
I had been born and raised in the deep south
Far below the Mason Dixon Line
instead of being planted in the upper Midwest
like a primordial glacier
all rock solid
and lethargic,
lake winds coiled around my spine
January whiteouts blinding
like cataracts
And as I push
a snowblower through a drift,
somebody somewhere
is slick with sunblock,
and dripping with Gulf waters,
grateful they weren’t born
north of the Mason Dixon Line
Why do they call it
“Winter Blues?”
From my window I see no blue
The sky is the sullen gray
of decrepit drywall
The lawn wears the brown cast
of oxidized flesh
Trees, their limbs twisted and exposed,
look like emaciated monsters,
their hides blackened and scarred
From this moment forward
let the season be called
“Winter pale”
For like an embalmed corpse
its color has been drained
and it awaits burial
###
BELOW THE LINE
I wish
I had been born and raised in the deep south
Far below the Mason Dixon Line
instead of being planted in the upper Midwest
like a primordial glacier
all rock solid
and lethargic,
lake winds coiled around my spine
January whiteouts blinding
like cataracts
And as I push
a snowblower through a drift,
somebody somewhere
is slick with sunblock,
and dripping with Gulf waters,
grateful they weren’t born
north of the Mason Dixon Line
Friday, February 12, 2016
SOUTH HAVEN
SOUTH HAVEN
Autumn
October
hunched along the eastern shore of Lake Michigan
like an abandoned child
South Haven waits for summer’s return
My wife and I
stroll the streets
now reticent and barren
like the beach itself
sulking behind the buildings
where seagulls screech their impudent calls
as they prepare their escape
from the looming
hostile Michigan winter
Along the beach
rows of gift shops
tee shirt shops
fast food cafes
sit shuttered and dark
rejects to the changing season
that leaves them barren and sequestered
like victims of a dreaded disease
The sound of our footsteps
ring past the seaside inns,
their blinds drawn against blank windows
the season’s dust settling like a plague
over unused furniture
closeted like unwanted dogs
behind locked doors
The clouds
like charcoal smudges
across a translucent canvas
wallow in their own reverie
hang
then drift eastward
over jade waters churned
by the rebuke of fall’s stiletto winds
South Haven
lives for the drone of motorboats
skiers in tow,
and the background chorus of tourists
in their flip flops and shorts,
hot hands clutching cold drinks
watching their kids scurry to the lake
like berserk lemmings
But as the inevitable cycle
plays itself out,
one last gull paces the beach
looks westward
and anticipates an arduous flight to the sun
as autumn bites
at its wings
Autumn
October
hunched along the eastern shore of Lake Michigan
like an abandoned child
South Haven waits for summer’s return
My wife and I
stroll the streets
now reticent and barren
like the beach itself
sulking behind the buildings
where seagulls screech their impudent calls
as they prepare their escape
from the looming
hostile Michigan winter
Along the beach
rows of gift shops
tee shirt shops
fast food cafes
sit shuttered and dark
rejects to the changing season
that leaves them barren and sequestered
like victims of a dreaded disease
The sound of our footsteps
ring past the seaside inns,
their blinds drawn against blank windows
the season’s dust settling like a plague
over unused furniture
closeted like unwanted dogs
behind locked doors
The clouds
like charcoal smudges
across a translucent canvas
wallow in their own reverie
hang
then drift eastward
over jade waters churned
by the rebuke of fall’s stiletto winds
South Haven
lives for the drone of motorboats
skiers in tow,
and the background chorus of tourists
in their flip flops and shorts,
hot hands clutching cold drinks
watching their kids scurry to the lake
like berserk lemmings
But as the inevitable cycle
plays itself out,
one last gull paces the beach
looks westward
and anticipates an arduous flight to the sun
as autumn bites
at its wings
Monday, February 8, 2016
MOHAMMED’S MESSENGER
Beneath the cloak,
his upper body is girdled
by a vest ladened with explosives
He meanders through the streets,
each step bringing him closer to martyrdom
each heartbeat a plea for immortality
His eyes are blurry from the cataracts
of religious zeal that blinds him
from the bleating of children and stoic old women
who are, to him, mere dust particles
in a windstorm of heresy for which
he will mete out their punishment
His thoughts are locked on his reward
of a paradise filled with virgins
awaiting his arrival so that he may
devour the fruits of their chaste innocence.
His faith is as steady as the sun over Mecca
that lights his path to the bosom of Allah,
for he knows there is only one truth:
in the nanno second following his vaporization
he will either be greeted by 72 voluptuous virgins
or devolve into a baleful eternity of blackness.
Either way
he’s fucked
Beneath the cloak,
his upper body is girdled
by a vest ladened with explosives
He meanders through the streets,
each step bringing him closer to martyrdom
each heartbeat a plea for immortality
His eyes are blurry from the cataracts
of religious zeal that blinds him
from the bleating of children and stoic old women
who are, to him, mere dust particles
in a windstorm of heresy for which
he will mete out their punishment
His thoughts are locked on his reward
of a paradise filled with virgins
awaiting his arrival so that he may
devour the fruits of their chaste innocence.
His faith is as steady as the sun over Mecca
that lights his path to the bosom of Allah,
for he knows there is only one truth:
in the nanno second following his vaporization
he will either be greeted by 72 voluptuous virgins
or devolve into a baleful eternity of blackness.
Either way
he’s fucked
Sunday, January 24, 2016
CARIBBEAN REVERIE
From my table outside the café
I watch two cruise ships snuggle with
the dock at Saint Thomas, as if they were
enormous dolphins wanting to mate.
A net of vehicles covers the boulevard,
a languid stream of taxis
hauling red-face tourists to their
island fantasies, cameras and sunscreen in tow.
I sip my diluted ice tea and watch
the harbor waters sway with the afternoon breeze,
reflecting cubes of Caribbean sunlight,
reminding me that it’s February back home.
Back home where it feels like an old man’s frail hand.
Back home where it looks like degraded tintype.
Back home where you can see your breath
but not feel your fingers.
Back home used to be home
when there was family left to cherish
and tomorrows to plot
and lives to share.
Back home has dissolved like the ice in my glass.
This island is my home now.
This island where I can feel my fingers
and never see my breath,
where my last years are spent leaving footprints
in the sand, as I imagine myself flying with the seagulls,
equatorial currents uplifting my wings.
This island is where I spend shiny afternoons
drinking ice tea and watching the cruise ships
unload their frozen dreamers
From my table outside the café
I watch two cruise ships snuggle with
the dock at Saint Thomas, as if they were
enormous dolphins wanting to mate.
A net of vehicles covers the boulevard,
a languid stream of taxis
hauling red-face tourists to their
island fantasies, cameras and sunscreen in tow.
I sip my diluted ice tea and watch
the harbor waters sway with the afternoon breeze,
reflecting cubes of Caribbean sunlight,
reminding me that it’s February back home.
Back home where it feels like an old man’s frail hand.
Back home where it looks like degraded tintype.
Back home where you can see your breath
but not feel your fingers.
Back home used to be home
when there was family left to cherish
and tomorrows to plot
and lives to share.
Back home has dissolved like the ice in my glass.
This island is my home now.
This island where I can feel my fingers
and never see my breath,
where my last years are spent leaving footprints
in the sand, as I imagine myself flying with the seagulls,
equatorial currents uplifting my wings.
This island is where I spend shiny afternoons
drinking ice tea and watching the cruise ships
unload their frozen dreamers
Friday, January 15, 2016
Tuesday, January 12, 2016
TO MY GRANDCHILDREN
Remember life’s rules,
for they are the pathway
to harmony and fulfillment
Ignore those who say
life is a nightmare, for they
are the ones who have forgotten
how to dream
Bend to no one’s whims and will,
and bend no one to yours
Revere nature and remember
we are part of it--not separate
from it--and that the creations
of the intellect are as precious
as any mountain peak or
sun-dappled forest
Keep reason as your friend,
logic as your tool,
superstition as your enemy
Keep a safe distance
from the arm of the State, for
at the end of it is an iron fist
While others may seek and demand sacrifice,
revel in life. While others may drop
to their knees in fear of myths,
stand erect and embrace reality
Put your life first, for that
is your highest moral purpose,
but always honor those you hold dear,
for they are the rewards of your humanity
Remember life’s rules,
for they are the pathway
to harmony and fulfillment
Ignore those who say
life is a nightmare, for they
are the ones who have forgotten
how to dream
Bend to no one’s whims and will,
and bend no one to yours
Revere nature and remember
we are part of it--not separate
from it--and that the creations
of the intellect are as precious
as any mountain peak or
sun-dappled forest
Keep reason as your friend,
logic as your tool,
superstition as your enemy
Keep a safe distance
from the arm of the State, for
at the end of it is an iron fist
While others may seek and demand sacrifice,
revel in life. While others may drop
to their knees in fear of myths,
stand erect and embrace reality
Put your life first, for that
is your highest moral purpose,
but always honor those you hold dear,
for they are the rewards of your humanity
Thursday, January 7, 2016
VESPUCCI’S OCEAN
We sail across
Vespucci’s ocean,
inhaling the salt-ladened
air like frolicking dolphins
as supple as the waves
we navigate.
They heave and rasp as the
Atlantic rolls like a mariner’s lullaby,
while Cuba crouches
in the vague distance
like a torpid centipede,
a failing western sun hovering
over its spine. We wrestle
the undulating sea
doing twenty-four knots at a
longitude beyond our reckoning,
and a latitude
beyond our scope
sailing somewhere in the domain of
Vespucci’s ocean
We sail across
Vespucci’s ocean,
inhaling the salt-ladened
air like frolicking dolphins
as supple as the waves
we navigate.
They heave and rasp as the
Atlantic rolls like a mariner’s lullaby,
while Cuba crouches
in the vague distance
like a torpid centipede,
a failing western sun hovering
over its spine. We wrestle
the undulating sea
doing twenty-four knots at a
longitude beyond our reckoning,
and a latitude
beyond our scope
sailing somewhere in the domain of
Vespucci’s ocean
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